When I was a kid, I loved Davey Crockett. My mom made me this outfit, with the tassels down the arms and legs. It was supposed to emulate the deer hide clothing he wore. I had a coon skin hat. I had a toy musket. I was Davey Crockett. It was awesome.
Well, unfortunately, I have found out recently that I’m not Davey Crockett. Sad. So sad. he was a badass. I want to be a badass. I’ve always wanted to be the hero. The guy who knows what to do and how to do it. I believe this desire is part of my nature.
Ultimately, I want to be God. Until we come to terms with this fact, we are never going to be able to let God be God.
Me wanting to be Davey Crockett, or in the song’s case, John Wayne (each character represents the same idea), is really me wanting to not need. To have it all. To be a “badass”. This is me wanting to be God. When I don’t need anything it means I have reached one of two logical conclusions:
I don’t have any needs.
I already have my needs taken care of.
While similar, these 2 ideas couldn’t be more different. It’s about the starting point. When I see John Wayne up on his horse, with his cool hat, and his gun, staring down at some hopeless criminal, I see a man who simply doesn’t need anything. he has his gun, his horse, his authority, his experience. He know what’s going on, and he will tell you he knows how this is going to end. He is our cultural example of a man who needs nothing. Literally. Not that his needs have been met, indicating that at some point he had needs, but now he doesn’t. John Wayne portrays a man WHO NEEDS NOTHING. You ever imagined John Wayne as a kid? What was he like when he was 8? Did he go crying to his mom with a skinned knee or whine about his brother being mean?!?! hahaha… no! 8 year old John Wayne doesn’t exist because in our collective consciousness, John Wayne is the patron saint of masculinity. St. John (Wayne). Strong, bold, courageous, and needless. he is there to provide, to conquer, to defeat, to rescue, and do it all with a small and a catch phrase. Sounds amazing. Looks amazing. Very sexy. Very alluring. Complete BS. No really. Stop the tape. Turn up the lights. Stop! This is all BS. Complete falsehood. A lie from the pit of hell, if I may be so dramatic. But I’m not being dramatic. I’m telling the truth.
Statement 2- My needs have been met. This idea brings to the table the admittance of need. And this is crucial. This is incredibly important. I’m going to say it one more time. I cannot oversell the importance of recognize your own need. Seek it. Ask to see it. Look for it. It is this very awareness of you need that opens the powerful, beautiful, awe-inspiring door to a Savior.
Once aware of my need, I can ask for help. I can also try really hard to meet my needs on my own, which will eventually fail (although some people have the resources and resilience to travel this road for a long time, maybe their whole life. this is another topic).
The rest of us, need help. that comma is there on purpose. I need a dramatic pause. the rest of us… raise you hand. We need help. Thus leading me to write the words:
“The truth is, I’m afraid. The truth is I’m not ok.” “The truth is I lost my gun. The truth is I’m on the run. The truth is I don’t know my way out of this one.”
The truth is, I’m not John Wayne. I’m not Davey Crockett. I’m Rob. And I know Rob. Rob is pretty sure Rob isn’t a badass. Rob is doing the best he can with what he’s got, but let’s be honest, that’s not much. and I’m not trying to be humble here. As a matter of fact, can I run with this for a second? Our culture is so adverse to the truth that we shame ourselves and each other when we try and admit it. really grinds my gears. Ok. back on track.
I think you get what I’m saying. My inner critic is telling me to stop and I’m going to listen. There is more here, but I will get to it later. For now, let’s all agree to begin to deal with the truth. I wish I was John Wayne, but I’m not. And the corresponding truth is that it’s much better this way. I’m not going to say Jesus is the real John Wayne because that’s about the dumbest thing I could think of. Jesus is Jesus. So let’s start taking our cues from him. let’s redefine who we are. I’ll break it down slowly.
We need. help.
Jesus offers us the perfect solution for our needs
Repeat.